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One last night of unrest

Wed Jul 8, 2009, 1:15 AM
  • Mood: Emotional
  • Listening to: Welcome Home by Coheed and Cambria
  • Reading: Paperwork...MOUNTAINS OF IT!!!
  • Playing: Rock Band
  • Drinking: Coke...nostalgia I guess...
So this is it...the final night here at my parents place. Me and Kitty have found a place and we start the move tomorrow. It is currently 2 AM and we are scheduled to wake up at 7 AM. Another long, sleepless night. Thus has been the story of my life of late. But while I look forward to settling down in our own place, completing this torment that is the nerve wracking event of moving, and maybe getting some sleep for once (one can only hope...), I do not look forward to the lack of internet. This will be the first time in many years that I have gone without internet for a time longer then a couple weeks...at least readily available internet. While me and Kitty looked hard for a place with free wireless, none of them were in our budget. Go figure that a two bedroom, two bath apartment with a decent sized balcony and kitchen WAS in our budget...irony has a way of telling us that life is still crappy sometimes.

So this is it. The next step in the stairway of life. Next steps: marriage, family, a real HOME, and happily ever after (not necessarily in that order <.< ). While all of that seems like a real possibility right now, it's all very far off...distant on the horizon as it were. And while it feels like I'm an adult now - a working force man with something REAL to live for - I still feel like my inner child cries out like a baby for its blanket. Almost like I'm leaving some part of me behind...forgetting about a piece of me. That's how much effect you guys have had on me. THAT'S the feeling of family. So in a sense, while I leave for a new path, a new experience in life, I leave behind a piece of my heart here with you. I dare not say goodbye for I know in my heart I will still have opportunities in the future to converse with you. But I still feel lost in some way or another.

Usually I have something witty to say...some kind of worldly wisdom to share with you at this point. But now...now I have no words. I only wish to say thank you. Everyone.
-Flantics out

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Good luck in your life, Ky. I know you and Kitty will have a VERY happy life together

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I love you so much Karmy

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